The circus freaks of open source
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23 hours ago
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| drewdevault.com
| HN
0xbadcafebee
22 hours ago
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> I wish we had just left Terry well enough alone.

That would help Drew, but not Terry. Terry would remain on his own to struggle in silence, but Drew could sleep soundly without noticing him.

There've been many outsider artists over the years ("Artistry of the Mentally Ill", (c) 1922) whose schizophrenia has led them to lead tragic lives. But they also created amazing art that is celebrated around the world. I do wish Terry had gotten better treatment, and I'm also glad he gifted us with his art.

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SturgeonsLaw
19 hours ago
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Not just outsider artists either, Vincent van Gogh is one of the most widely known artists in history and he was dealing with increasingly severe mental health episodes over the years. A large amount of his art was produced while in varying states of psychosis. Starry Night was painted in an asylum.
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delusional
21 hours ago
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The text already responds to this concern

> The press and fan attention was deeply harmful to Terry and likely exacerbated his mental illness.

I don't know if that's true, if Terry would be better off, had the internet not found him entertaining. I also don't know if this is an internet phenomenon, or if we haven't always poked and prodded at the "different".

What I do know is that Drew thinks Terry had it worse because of this attention.

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narrator
20 hours ago
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> The press and fan attention was deeply harmful to Terry and likely exacerbated his mental illness.

The article writer turned his normative beliefs about the situation into prescriptive mental health advice.

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0xbadcafebee
12 hours ago
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It's equally plausible he would've gotten worse without the attention. Suffering in silence doesn't make the suffering easier. Other artists who were institutionalized continued to suffer and make art. If they'd been alone without help, they might've lived shorter lives. Software was clearly Terry's artistic outlet for his pain. I'm glad he got to communicate with other people. It sucks that some of those people were dicks to him. I hope the lesson we take from this is we should help more, not shun and ignore.
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cedws
10 hours ago
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IIRC 4chan was indirectly responsible for his death. An anon bought him a drum kit and Terry annoyed his parents with it, to the point that there was a heated argument and I believe violence. After that, they kicked him out of the house and gave him a van to live in. That’s when he started to really spiral and how he eventually ended up sleeping rough.
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vidarh
19 hours ago
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I don't know what attention he got on 4chan, but here he was shadow banned (rightly so; his comments were frequently full of slurs and more), and quite a few people had showdead on in part to see his comments (me included) because they occasionally let through things that were worth it. I think that was perhaps a reasonable middle ground. He wasn't on full display, and it avoided some of the worse responses he'd have gotten if his comments had been on full display to people who had not explicitly chosen to see them, but TempleOS was and is also fascinating separate from his mental illness and legitimate to post about here.
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trumpdong
16 hours ago
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> (rightly so; his comments were frequently full of slurs and more)

Isn't it so interesting how bans are deserved based on the form of a communication rather than its content

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mplanchard
15 hours ago
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Form and content are not perfectly separable, especially when we are talking to people, where the purpose of language is often to create a lossy expression of our thoughts. Content expressed with a slur for an ethnic group, for example, says something about a person’s underlying thoughts that the use of a more neutral term does not.
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trumpdong
14 hours ago
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It says he's schizophrenic, at least.
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mplanchard
11 hours ago
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Haha yeah, in this case. But that’s hardly the norm, and it would be a weird thing to assume any time someone starts hurling racial epithets or whatever. It makes sense to me to ban that type of “hot” discourse from a community, because it doesn’t contribute in any way to productive conversations, even if it is sometimes caused by something the poster doesn’t control, like schizophrenia.
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vidarh
13 hours ago
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I don't find it very interesting at all. The slurs were distressing to a lot of people, and people don't have an unlimited right to access to private spaces if they can't behave.

If I were to invite you into my space, I get to tell you to fuck off if you behave in ways other guests find hostile.

People have various degrees of ability to stomach vile language based on special circumstances like his illness, and it would have been incredibly unfair to a lot of people if those rants were imposed on everyone and would have seriously negatively affected the discourse here.

If anything, HN was exceedingly tolerant of Terry's outbursts because of his illness - while he was shadowbanned, it was clear a quite significant number of people read his comments despite the language, and while his comments did come up on threads about TempleOS etc., there was almost always plenty of people defending him.

It's also worth adding that while I do believe a lot of it was down to his illness, most schizophrenic people don't behave like that, so it feels like assuming it was all down to his illness also goes too far in relieving him of responsibility.

For my part, I feel mostly sad for him, while I'm also impressed by what he did. Yet I'm not at all upset that he was shadow-banned here.

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avaer
22 hours ago
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What about the "circus freaks" that get funding, influencers that maintain audience support, or those who get elected to office?

I don't understand how to tell the difference, other than what society and the media collectively judges to be genius versus disordered, and where the money accrues.

The people and their personalities are not all that different, other than how palatable/sellable they are.

That's not to say this isn't a real problem; I think the scale of it is much larger than people realize, because society often sees these same personality disorders as something to be rewarded.

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ndsipa_pomu
18 hours ago
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The difference is the person's wealth or the wealth of the people who want to push that agenda.

I like to compare the treatment of the extremely wealthy with extreme hoarders. Someone who fills their house with piles of e.g. magazines/newspapers, will be recognised as having mental problems. Meanwhile if someone keeps pursuing the gain of more wealth after they have far more money than can ever be spent, then typically society will fawn over them and respect their opinions, no matter how distasteful or outright wrong they are.

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roenxi
21 hours ago
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> I often see that people who I otherwise respect and recognize as allies and kindred spirits are participating in these rituals of humiliation, harassment, and voyeurism. I don’t think it’s right to gossip over or sensationalize the mental health crises faced by members of our communities.

This paragraph tickles me. Superficially, someone who I respect but for the humiliation, harassment and voyeurism is maybe not someone I would consider myself a kindred spirit with. Particularly once the word harassment starts becoming appropriate. Respecting them or making them an ally of convenience, perhaps.

But communities have a minimum standard of behaviour. People who fall below that standard need to be ostracised, people who meet the standard have to be tolerated. The dynamic requires people with mental health problems to be ostracised with some regularity otherwise the community would collapse. There isn't much of an alternative. Before they are ostracised they need to be subjected to humiliation rituals and a certain level of voyeurism as the community affirms where the social boundaries are. If there are bad actors (which there inevitably are) it may be necessary to harass them.

So I suppose I'm more comfortable with the paragraph than a superficial read of it would suggest, but it contains a delicate sentiment. Especially harassment, which is one of those socially nuclear options that should be used in truly rare and exceptional cases with appropriate concern for the second order effects on behaviour. It is better to just not associate with people who use it with enthusiasm.

> This is a difficult topic to write about. By writing about these specific examples, am I sensationalizing them? Disrespecting the privacy of the people I’m writing about? Participating in the circus myself?

Yeah, absolutely. It is part of the urge to help set the community standard of what behaviour is and isn't acceptable and to decide when various defence mechanisms to protect the community should be used. That impulse is at its core exactly where the voyeurism is coming from. How else will the community come to understand what the otherwise vague boundaries are? People are intensely interested in what the mob will do to them when angered and what the exact boundary line is to trigger that response.

The way to actually fight the circus is to have clear boundaries established beforehand. It isn't ever going to completely tamp down on the phenomenon, but there isn't much spectacle if there is a predictable response to a predictable action. English common law does an excellent job in this regard (not perfect, but as far as I know best of class). Notably it strives to avoid harassment and humiliation as tactics with frequent success.

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kruffalon
20 hours ago
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Fantastic comment, thanks.

In my opinion this is a much greater variable than lions for our fight, flight, fawn response that is used to explain stress.

The explanation is that we are evolved to stress about lions, but there are no lions (in most of our lives) so the stress is irrational and should be ignored or sidestepped.

My theory is that we are more stressed and struggle more with mental health because we, in our modern societies, are part of many more groups. And the rules for inclusion are stricter since every group has to define themselves against all the other groups.

So what really happens is that our bodies react as intended to the available stimulus of all the groups we instinctively want to be part of.

There are just too many groups.

I don't have any solutions, just a theory that helps me navigate my life.

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zozbot234
18 hours ago
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> But communities have a minimum standard of behaviour. People who fall below that standard need to be ostracised, people who meet the standard have to be tolerated. The dynamic requires people with mental health problems to be ostracised

We should not equate mental health problems in a general sense with outright anti-social behavior, these are very different issues. Moreover, the appropriate way of addressing anti-social behavior does not involve harassing the supposed bad actor; such harassment is counterproductive, since it tends to drive away the very best contributors while having the opposite effect on the worst (since they now have a ready-made excuse for behaving badly). 'Calling out' bad behavior sometimes happens, but this should be done in a polite and restrained way.

(As far as the example in the OP goes, my guess is that people feel free to poke fun at Kent's seeming AI psychosis because they interpret it as a case of intentional trolling; they don't really think Kent is expressing sincere, actually held beliefs about his AI girlfriend.)

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Fizz43
19 hours ago
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Its not up to any of us to be able to stop or police this behavior. It doesnt come from our community even if a subset of those users overlap. I can run the most strict community where this behavior is stomped out but users can still create a KF account and partake in this behavior elsewhere. Ultimately people should not open themselves up to the internet if they are sensitive to these results. There are very cruel people who will dedicate their lives to destroying you but the target need to keep feeding them.

Most people already understand and empathize with people going through a mental health crisis and dont provoke them.

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InfiniteRand
22 hours ago
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This reminds me of actors or entertainers who clearly are going through a manic phase that is veering towards psychosis or a crash.

Sometimes leave Britney alone means actually leave her alone.

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InsideOutSanta
19 hours ago
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The irony of the "leave Britney alone" guy is that he was the only person who was correct, and then himself became a target of the brutal attention and ridicule aimed at Britney Spears.
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ndsipa_pomu
18 hours ago
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The entertainment business (especially Hollywood) has always been guilty of exploiting artists and then throwing them away when they're no longer bankable.
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nrabulinski
17 hours ago
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It’s always obvious that people here comment only after reading the headline, and sometimes other comments, but this comment section makes it particularly clear.
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comex
22 hours ago
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I worry that this post is itself the type of sensationalized gossip it condemns.
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bertman
21 hours ago
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The author addresses exactly this in the postscript of his article.
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serf
19 hours ago
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"I did my best" comes across as exceedingly hollow when the post itself is :

1) : 'circus freaks of open source' isn't some clever pun or double entendre; it's just a jab.

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2) : "Hey everyone , this list of folks have troubles, let's talk about them by name and make a gentleman's pact not to bother them while we analyze the meta situation of 'people with troubles' more broadly!"

"Let's not bother this <full name of person>, internet!" is about the most naive net take one could imagine. If you need to make an example, or use a person as an example, at least try to anonymize the premise and identity.

If your doctor got an ig nobel for his pioneering technique for removing cucumbers from patients' rectums you'd be damned sure you'd prefer a Bob and Jane style anecdote rather than full name credit and a press interview as a frontier patient.

Yeah, Terry is long gone. Other folks aren't. Let's not pretend we're all just unwitting spectators here, and let's not ascribe fault or reasons behind Terry's tragic end.

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InsideOutSanta
19 hours ago
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I took the "circus freaks" line as a jab at the audience, not the performers.
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adampunk
13 hours ago
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Ok, but it's a freak show tho! The title promises circus freaks and two are on display, with their freakiness aired out for all to see. There's some "aren't we the villain here" hand-wringing but it's hard to take that seriously in an article that's organized around the display of two freaks!
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analognoise
21 hours ago
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It’s okay when they do it, because they’re wagging a finger at all of us bad people for being voyeurs, promoted by our stochastic ringleader to throw peanuts. They’re pure, we’re not. Also, some stuff about society collapsing.
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lkt
19 hours ago
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Drew should include himself on that list, he’s earned it.
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jakemanger
20 hours ago
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This would make a nice documentary, or at least a nice little youtube vid
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bigstrat2003
21 hours ago
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I have to disagree with the characterization of TempleOS. Perhaps other hobby operating systems have more impressive design (though it must be said that many do not), but that glosses over that it is a serious accomplishment to get a working operating system off the ground. Even if TempleOS is one of the worst hobby OSes out there, that still makes it one of the more impressive individual programming efforts out there.
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saint_yossarian
22 hours ago
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Oh I thought this was going to be about Bun.
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themafia
21 hours ago
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> The press and fan attention was deeply harmful to Terry and likely exacerbated his mental illness.

What are you basing this on? Did you know him? This person you call a "circus freak?"

> Whenever TempleOS or Terry came up online

Which was often because Terry himself made an effort to live stream his work and his opinions on computing. Which this author seems to have missed is those strong opinions were shared by a large segment of his fanbase. What made Terry unique is that he put his effort where his rhetoric was. He was out to prove something, and, largely, he did.

> voyeuristic sensation of witnessing his mental illness through TempleOS.

Terry famously refused help. A large number of people over the years reached out in an effort to improve his situation and give him the help they thought he might need. He didn't want it.

> I wish we had just left Terry well enough alone.

I just wish Terry had gotten some help and I wish he was still with us. He died alone and that makes me incredibly sad. I cannot appreciate anything this author is trying to say. It seems to me he's the voyeur and is using this opportunity to stand on a grave to chastise the crowd. I find _that_ sick.

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JuniperMesos
18 hours ago
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And these qualities are hardly unique to Terry Davis - there are lots of people with untreated mental illnesses who refuse help and end up living the kind of wandering, homeless lifestyle that risks their own lives, as well as the lives and property of other people they may come into contact with. Terry Davis was just also internet-famous for his esoteric operating system.

There's no non-coercive way to treat a mentally ill person who doesn't want to be treated. I am in favor of treating some mentally ill people coercively regardless, in cases where the mental illness puts other people at risk of harm. But I don't claim that this is primarily for their benefit.

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Michelangelo11
21 hours ago
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The salient thing to me here is that their art kind of just crashed and burned (at least, I conclude so based on the post -- this is the first time I've heard of either of these people), and mental illness does not seem to have had any positive effect on it.
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